“I don’t want to talk about it!”


When the going gets tough . . .

I wonder what percentage of us are tough enough to get going, that we might work through whatever challenge we are now facing. Conversely, I am curious what number blurt out, “I don’t want to talk about it!” and walk away.

I don’t know if I want to learn the answer.

As things often seem to come in waves, this has popped up with me in many of the conversations I have been having. While most of them have been with folks who have a spouse, who does not want to talk about their spouse’s gender issues, there have been plenty of other typical areas where ignoring the situation has been the insisted upon non-solution.

What would have happened to me if I had not opened up to Julie, or, if, when I did, she had responded to my telling her that I had grown suicidal because of my gender dysphoria with the all-too-common, “I don’t want to talk about it”?

I know what has happened to a number of couples, who have been in the spot where one spouse refused to address a serious issue. For a two-in-one example, I am thinking of two couples to whom I ministered, whose young children had died. In both cases, one spouse longed to talk about their child, about the ongoing struggle over the loss, while the other spouse didn’t want it brought up. Within a couple of years, both couples divorced. In both cases, the spouse who wanted to talk told me it was because they no longer communicated. In one marriage, it was the husband who could not bear to speak of his child, and in the other it was the wife.

One of my church members, a lovely lady whom, only weeks earlier, I had finished instructing so that she could join the congregation, found herself in the hospital, in what would be a few days from death, because her stomach cancer was inoperable. It turned out that, for months, she knew something was wrong. She told me that she ignored it, that she had not wanted to talk about it. When she finally did, it was too late.

In the three years since I have been getting to know trans folks, I wish I had a pizza for every time one of them spoke of a spouse, or parents, or other loved ones, who elected not to listen to them. As if, what? As if, by not talking about it, “it” would not exist?

Isn’t that the way we often play it? If we don’t talk about it, if we don’t look at it, if we don’t face it, it doesn’t exist?

Can you think of a single thing in life that, by ignoring it, it ceases to exist? It just goes away? Remaining deaf and blind to it made the boo-boo all better?

Can you think of a worse way to harm the love others have for you than to declare that you will not talk about the thing which is so troubling them?  That you don’t want to hear it?  That, should they try to open up, you blow up?

When you are in a tough situation—take note: I did not write IF, but WHEN, because we ALL find ourselves in tough situations—do you like it when others don’t want to talk about what concerns you? When they stick their fingers in their ears, do you feel the love?

A person told me, “I don’t want to force the issue with my spouse. If we start talking, it will just make the matter worse.” I replied, “No, the matter is growing worse because you are not talking about it. By not talking, both of you are forming ideas and making decisions about things which are taking you down paths of which the other has no idea.”

I believe that, if this couple doesn’t talk, they will wind up in divorce. The one is hurting tremendously. The other, also hurting, doesn’t want to face the issue. Their silent space will grow from cleft, to crevice, to canyon, with their sides winding up so far apart that it will be impossible for them to make the trek back to each other.

I knew a man who was not good at handling problems, something I found to be true as I got to know him. Issues troubling his wife, which only turned into frustratingly short, one-sided conversations with him, resulted in things she would not bring up. Left to work out her troubles on her own, she made other plans. She left her husband and filed for divorce.

He was shocked. He should not have been.

Isn’t this often the case, that we don’t want to talk about things, not simply because we don’t want to face them, but because we feel ill-equipped to address them, which contributes to their seeming to be insurmountable? “Maybe, it will just go away,” winds up sounding pretty good.

When I was a pastor, I sat several times with all of the couples I was about to join in marriage. One of our sessions was discussing communication, and one of the topics in that chat was the handling of problems. I asserted that not only do problems not have to drive apart couples, but the addressing and solving of them will serve to drive them to each other and strengthen their bond.

Julie and I are a walking, talking example of the truth of this.

Besides our bond of love, there are other keys as to why Julie and I succeeded, which are vital to all communication, especially when issues are challenging. When I opened up to Julie, I knew these things, that she would

  • remain calm, and
  • listen to me, and
  • not quickly or unfairly judge me or the situation, and
  • care about everything I told her, and
  • have my best interest at heart.

Because I trusted each of these aspects, I was able to open up and be completely honest with Julie. If I would have doubted any of these things, I would very likely have been stifled.

Who wants to expose his heart to a person who explodes in anger?

Who dares to declare her dreams to a person who will only dash them?

Who finds that it will only be a waste of time when things always become about the other person?

It comes down to trust.

It comes down to being trustworthy.

Not only does this go for communication in relationships such as marriage and with family and friends, it also comes into play when we are sick and really should see a doctor, when we have work troubles and ought to involve the boss, and innumerable other of life’s situations. We need people to have proven themselves trustworthy so that we might trust them now, when we are in a serious situation.

When this is the case, we have a shot at succeeding and, even if we still really don’t want to talk about it, we will be able to do so.

6 thoughts on ““I don’t want to talk about it!”

  1. Thank you. I have a church meeting next week with a leader who “doesn’t think there’s anything to talk about.” This gave me confidence to be more open about the issues. I keep thinking about the verses that say “be reconciled to your brother” or “go to him” and talk about the sin or issue.


  2. Colleen~ Indeed, the same thing is accomplished, only with fewer words and, perhaps for you, more frustration because of it.

    Kathy~ How wonderful for you to take this to heart in the manner you have! Even if, after you speak to the issue, the leader still thinks there is nothing to it, you will have shined Christ when you speak calmly and respectfully.

    The Lord be with you both!


  3. Well put, Kathy, regarding “bank accounts.” In a marvelous book I recently read, the theologian regularly returned to this fact that we humans love to keep account of things, even in regard to, and to the detriment of, our standing with the Lord, and it does grave harm to us. The author always brings us back to the pure Gospel, that all accounts are paid through the blood of Christ, how we are free in Him. Oh, that we all might revel in this gracious freedom – no record-keeping! – and then go out and live it with our neighbor!


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